291011'

Meant to be posted on 291011'.

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Today has been great! Even better now that I remember tomorrow has church, not to forget, this iPad is practically mine for the office visits! Top girl! Haha lame but still. It's awesome. And then I think, a real boyfriend would be fun as well, but, no! I can depend well on myself alone. I don't need anyone. Except for god, family and friends! They're forever here for me! Family has been okay, except for those disgusting thoughts I think about every now and then... Relationship with Christ is as usual , AMAZING! Friendship problems, yeah, there's quite many. First, jiho. I'm okay with her, but seems like I'm the only one. But I don't mind that, I'm a strong girl, even I know that. The problem, why is it so tough for her?! I know it's tough for others, but her best friends totally ditched here! They're such bitches! Peishang is outrageously a liar, apple too. For Celine, she's nothing but a backstabber! Same for Ashley. Sabrina apparently is being zann's dog for idk what shit. She's randomly pmsing and pissing at me. Not just me though. But now she says it's a hard break between zann and myself. It just kills me inside when she is forever with zann but still comes t me and claims I'm better cause zann can't advise. I mean yeah maybe I do advise well but then at least she should be true to me instead f being a total bitch every now and then! But then again, reality check! She says zann can't advise like I do, but that IS a better point, isn't it? So shouldn't I be better? But nooooo~~ I'm apparently still 'tied' case she still counts that as little, I guess. But, she apparently still has the cheek to claim that she'd rather go to a same secondary school as me. I believed it for that moment, and I felt like flying, but noooppeeeee. She suddenly said: cause I'll get different marks as zann but mine and yours are alike so I'm going with you cause I don't wanna go alone. Isn't that as good as saying m her second choice while zann is, was, and forever will be her first choice?! I don't really care that much anymore. Whatever she does, it's all fake. She came over, we had such a great day, even dinner and a neo together, but the next day, she was back to the same as usual with zann. That's so sad for me. Fuck my life. Hais. She's just another bitch, that comes and goes, I'll just learn a lesson, and move on, and forget about her. Anyway Natasha and I drifted like hell. Cause she's spending too much time with Mitch. We wanna go out, I say, alright we two only right? Then she says with Mitch. For EVERYTHING. It hurts, we have no more alone time. So I decided to forget about everything cause they'll just let me down. But everyone, look. Why do you hate jiho so much. She never let me down like other bitches. And I'm gonna depend on her now. My rock.Besides god. Done with today, top girl here I comeeeee! Lame kids ftw yo! The last year to be lame, so enjoy! Talking about that, I'm gonna miss everything that happened when i grew up in btps. Well, all I need is for jiho and I to be together. Currently, that's all that matters. Plus, I'm actually quite happy Sabrina isn't allowed to follow me to Malaysia! We're gonna have the time of my life, she's gonna mean more than ever, and she'll just go back to her old zann dog thing again, and crush my hopes. So, I'll now just hope on god and jiho. Amen, ;).

My truths, your lies.

Backstabbing, girl drama, lesbianing, boys, i'm all over that. You guys might not be really worth dedications, but at least others will know what you did. Ying; you were my friend, my best friend. You were my EVERYTHING. I really thought so, but now? Yeah right, you ditched me cause of peishang. I see my importance to you now. Shina; we were best friends, and i know we WERE. I thought we'd be friends, or at least acquaintances. Whatever, now you're gossiping, still put on a show for what big fuck? Peishang; you dont even know me, so you better fucking not judge me. You bitch, dont scold zoey, she didn't side me, she just knows me better. Sabrina, Zann; it's over lah please. Grow up bitches. Sabrina stop being a slut, you're not everyone's everything. Don't step lahh. Zann, stop confusing everyone and making everything to your advantage. You just want to be everyone's ONLY best friend huh. Devious bitch. Immature dicks.

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I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. ♥

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Thanks to: Natasha, JiHo; thanks guys, for being there, for ignoring bitches, and whatever they said. Thanks for lending me your shoulder when i cried for like the first time. I love you guys, thanks, alot. You guys are the best, ever. ♥

Here i am , rock you likea hurricane !

It's been a long time since i updated . Few interesting things . ~ Will write in point form , but i cant remember the dates . /:

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#Forgive and forget
Forgive and forget = forgive the person and forget their wrong doings . Apparently , i can't forgive , but i forget . Not the mistake , but the person . Should i list ? Hmm , initials bah . JTTJ . You've hurt me so much , cheating bastard . Now , my heart is gone , and i believe , forever . You'll never understand how much it feels , how much it hurts to be liking a guy , and hearing him say everyday ; ' i like so and so , so and so fucking chio . ' You wont EVER understand . I've told my babes , they tell me ; ' Fucker ! He made you lose you feelings ?! He's getting it ! Forget about that bastard ! ' So i am , i will , i did . But you talked to me , and i don't know why , but , i agreed to BFF ? My ass man , sorry , but yeah . It's over . This old friendship of ours , long lost and forgotten . Don't scold me for breaking a promise , i've hurt enough , and it's my turn to break , not to you , but everyone . I'm done here , who wants to talk about the past ? Further more , feelingless .

#Friends
Friends , awesome little babies i'll never do without . I love you guys , this bunch , forever and always . Ying , iloveyou . So damn much , don't leave , you're so precious . Bugis all the way yeah ! Sabrina , old or new ? Fuck it all ! ~ I love you , and that's a no matter what ! Sleepover , here i come ! Zann , iloveyou ! Girl drama ? Fuck it ! Hahas , at least i trust you more ! Zoey , fuck you ? Nah , i've given up on that , get a life yeah . thanks . Jeron , fuck off my life , those four words to you . Thanks . Others that are not mentioned , i love you all as much . ♥

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You wont understand ever , but , its okay , i've no feelings now . Ever again . Thanks alot , no pain no gain . This is no pain got gain . Gained maturity , yet again . You bitches and bastards wont . Relationship is more than just a like like situation you know . You guys wont understand that , at least for now . At least i do . Thanks , for killing my heart . It feels much better without pain .

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T.G.I.F ♥

Baby YingYing , thats dedicated to you . Spongebob FOREVERR ! No one and nothing will ever replace you . You're my life . I love you baby . ♥

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Baby YingYing . ♥ Today , school , normal shizz . Text Celine♥ in class whole day . Oops , naughty girl . :x whoops . ~ Went west mall with Baby YingYing , Zoey , Pshing , Cebine . ♥ They wanted watch a movie , no show , NC16 . ~ -'- Zoey and pshing went early , 1400 . YingYing♥ , Cebine and I took four neoprints (!! ♥) Ate mac , then value shop , :x . YingYing and i got some papers for letter and card making . ~ Went to Ying's via cab , cab driver sibeh lannn . ~ Say very troublesome to make ezlink card payment , all this shit , in the end , fightfight , we didn't pay . Polaroid w/ YingYing , choosing which one , play fight ! ~ (Y) Bitedieher ! (: ♥ her . ~ Then polaroid w/ Cebine also . ~ Took a lift from Cebine's car to tuition , then tuitionnnn . ~ 'Till seven , then took a lift from Keisha . Whoops , freeload . :x Then , text YingYing like crap , warn her 'bout school reopen , spamming her maxmax with letters and cards . ♥ Phone out of money . :/ Posted on Ying's wall to chat on facebook , but , waiting . ~ Trying to download Whats App ! ~ (Y) ♥ I love you YingYing , my babygurl ! ~ Making cards for YINGGGG first , then rest . ~ Byebye , gonna' do hw's then cards , sleep ! ~

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Baby YingYing , i know i love you , and im honoured to be one of your besties . Love you forever babygirl ! ;D I hearts you . Make my letter ! ~ I love you , muackss . ♥

Back again , with shitz and rocksss . (: ♥

Sun - church , etc .
Mon and Tue - NTHH .
Wed , Englishhh oral . Went there , school . ~ Stayed at library from 2 till 1530 , with CheeHoe , Celine , Curry , then oral . During that one and a half hour , Natasha fuckin' slapped Celine . Seriously ?! Whats her problem . Disgusting bitch . Then , say its on a dare . Even so , need drag Celine babes in ?! Dog . 25th , over forever . Fucked up .
Thurs - chinese oral , killleeerrrr . During the same one and a half hour , that woman passed note , called me bitch , i told her , if i am , she's like OHHEMMMMEFFFFGGEEEEE . (Y) Pwned ! Loser . Say what ' compromise and be friends , dont talk bout Ying Ying babes , Celine Hearts , and Currryyyy ?! NOWAYYY . I fuckin' love them , how can dont talk . Say what , freedom of choosing friends ?! HAHAHAHAH FUNNY . Best laugh everr ! Thicked skin bitch , say that even though you fuckin' tried to make me hate baby yingying ?! -'- DOGGGG . Blame me for everythingggg . ' Yes master , all my fault , sorrryyy . ' PUIIII ! Kiss my ass , lick my pussy , suck my cock man . (Y) Love my C group forever baby ! Say whattt ?! Acting with them siboh ? No , im normally like that , when i am happy . Stupid bitch , need me spell it out ? H-A-P-P-Y ! :D WITH THEM . I love them , they love me . Ehehehe . ! :D

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♥ C GROUP FOREVERRR .
Carissa L. ( cutiee twinn )♥
Carissa W. ( cock ball sucker )
Celine (chiobu ~ ) ♥
Chang( cutie pieee )
CheeHoe ( crazy ! ~ ) ♥
Chuaying ( chiobu yingying baby ! ) ♥

Inspired . ~

Science inspire . ♥
It was fun , but tiring . Wore black tank , hot shots , and jacket . Drew on face w/ eyeliner like nobody's business . Fun maxmax . Polaroid w/ mrs lim , shina , zann & sabrina . (: Love you guys . Last minute , couldn't go to Nat's , she upset max . Sorry , but , seriously , i didn't mean it . We presented whole day , run run , camwhored . At one time , talked 'bout ghost stories 'till everyone teared , shivered and screamed at other's sudden movements . :x Hehe . Then Zann suddenly come and say , ' seventh month ady , you know ? ' i was fuckin' creeped , sabrina teared , shina screamed likea g6 . Walking together to toilet after it , about to change , saw mrs lau , i asked ' its seventh month , or not ? ' She said no . Happy maxmaxmax , run screaming cause happy shit , then laughed 'till cried . :b haha , i'll always enjoy myself w/ you guys . ♥ After that stayed for band . Mario came , talked w/ him for some time privately , and heard that Korkor smokes ? Whatthefuck . Please don't . What type of christian is this . Fucked up , sibeh dulan . Mario cooled me down , but , i was still shocked . God , help him , please . ♥ At night , chatted w/ markus , he scared sabrina hates her ? Haha , he despo maxmax . Then say what , he & sabrina stead ? Rubbish only . ~ :b Then , talk to RonRon . (: Talked 'bout some stuffs , then phone out of battery , had to go . About to sleep , but , prepared some papers , stickers , etc for making my bigbig card for shina baby . ♥ Today gonna make , if free , which i think i will be , as completed all homeworks . (: Saving to twenty-five to get paper cardstockkk for cards . (: More than halfway thru . Excited maximum . Totally broke , spent on so many stuffs , went Jp that day , spent again . :x Oh well , worth it , what i buy , what i'll use . (: Saving to get Shina , Sabrina , Natasha gifts , and cards stuff . Then , slept . ~

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Early today , woke up , Dad and brothers went to play tennis , mum just left too . Using comp 'till around 0945 , then shower , and tution 'till 1130 . Should be calling RonRon after that , he said wanted tell me something v.v.v. private and important . BFF . ♥ Should just be going out for lunch , top-up bus card as well , call , run run , that's all . Okies , 'gonna shower . Byebye ! ~ (:

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Im sorry , but i cant accept you , mainly , for your own good . I dont fancy anyone now , but what if i accept you , then like someone else ? It'll do more harm then good to you . So , im sorry , maybe im not worth it . Bye . ~

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♥ ; Ronron , shina , sabrina , natasha . (:
Thanks you guys , for being here , forever and always .

Thursday . ~

Needa' smile ? Take one ! ~ As far as im concern , i dont ! (: Yes , yesterday was emo , today happy ? Mood swings yo . Tomorrow science inspire with my precious babies . Bringing POLAROIDDD . (: Hehe . Nineteen films . Only . Oh well , better than nothing . (: Today supplementary , whole time set-up . Zann made newspaper skirt & skirt , (Y) . Sab set up the experiment , Shina and I decorated the board ! :D Drew magnets for so long . ~ (: Tomorrow outfits ; Zann , Newspaper skirts , eyeliner , nerd specs ; Shina , Hot pants , black shirt , eyeliner , witch hat ; Sabrina , Black skirt , my flats , black shirt ; Me , Fav. hot pants/ sab's blue hot's , black DKNY shirt , fake lashes , eyeliner , sneakers . (: Excited maxmax ! Everyday moodswing likea bitch . ~ :x Tomorrow = HYPER MAXMAXMAX ! ;D Yeah ba~by ! Hahas . Cant wait . Borrowing eyeliner from Mrs Wee . Thanks ! ~ Hahas . Rich woman lahh she . ~ Hehe , gotta' get rest for tomorrows presentations , plus , homework ! PWNED ! :D Hahas , okie , bye ! ~

After funday . (:

Cutting - i promised i won't , but , everyone's broken my promises , EVERYONE . Even the ones i trusted the most . My lesson : Trust no one . They've broken every promise , so now , im doing it .

Was busy , as usual , update on 3 to 4 days basis .
Friday - went to Nat's w/ CJ and RonRon . (: Watched 'Ghosts must be crazy' , funny maxmax . Ronron scared like shizz . :b Nat and CJ 'attacked' me , cause i never accept K.T's stead . Hais , should i ? But , i dont like anyone now , but as they say , '感情可以裴杨' . But , what if i accept , and , i like someone else ? I dont know . Its too much , i may be mind mature , but i dont feel ready for a BGR . But , maybe , i'll just give it a try , if it doesnt work out , then end it straightaway .
Saturday - Fundayyy . (: It was boring , ohwell . Haunted house , cheat money , people under desk spraying water , shina darling and i pulled 'em out ! ~ (Y) Funny maxmax . Then , the people scolded us like shizz . Oh well . :b Hehe . Captains ball , won KaiHui's team . Then , versus Joyvina , lost . Not being a sore loser , but , teacher was really bias . Tough fight . Nat pushed shina out countless times , then Junaidah bias , count as not a goal . Three people marked me - joyvina , nat , sarah . Hais . But , over it . At least i know i lost FAIR AND SQUARE , rather than winning by cheating ?! -'- Nat was pissed w/ me , for idk what . She saw i got Polaroid , ask take , i dw liao . Went playground awhile w/ Shiling , Aloisa , Zac and Bong . All left at 1 , shiling and i stayed on . Then , one teen saw me w/ Polaroid , ask me help her take , i say no , she buey song , keep talking 'bout me to her boyf . Joked and say what , Give her Polaroid . Kiss my ass man . -'- After that , went robinsons , spent 400$ . Awesome ttvfm . Bought this purple overall jacket . Love it . (: Ate nicenice food ! ~ :D
Sun , today - Morning , church , now home , later , nothing much . Oh well , thats all .
Mon - Nothing much .
Tue - nothing as well .
Wed - Went to clementi mall , zachariah treated KFC . thanks ! :D Then , went paper market get stuff to make Shina's card , then home . Xin yun , Shaun Chow , Bong came over . Played played , fun maxmax . Nothing else , later tution .

- I thought i wanted a stead , but maybe not , i dont , cause , my heart is nowhere . I really hope Kennett wont be so persistent , cause im really not going to accept . Oh well , kthxbye .

Finally .

Finally back . Hais , past few days busy maxmax . Not going in detail , but listing some interesting happenings . Friday ; patched with Jh , closeclose . (: Sat ; nothing . ~ Sun ; Went to Queens , shopped and blahblahblah , then , bro wanted to eat Laksa , sat down , bro stood up , went to order , once walking back , accidentally bumped this guys shoulder , then what , he kept staring ?! Its just an accident , for god's sake . Looked like wanted to whack , starestare , walking away , almost whack , but his friends pushed him aside . Then , he shouted ' your mother here i give you face ! ' Bro already so hot , still want agitate him , bro couldn't take it sitting down , shouted ' my ass la ! ' he was damn fucking shocked , i guess he thought bro was scared to reply ? Haha , not , in your face , go get a life , over these things find trouble ? Nothing better in life to do eh . Curse you bang head against wall and die . :b Bro damn hot , eating , whole hand shaking , too angry le . Lost his appetite , gave it to second bro . Mon ; got this big cut-blister from monkey bars after parkour-ing on monkey bars , hais . Tue ; came home from school , suddenly take out socks , one red patch . Got a cut , from god-knows-where . And now , just back from school . ~ After school , Natasha babes was moody . ): Guessed i ruined it more by not lending her my comb ? :x sorry dear ~ ♥ Friday going to her house , helping her make my 8th month card ( just drawing domo ) And play around . Sat = FUNDAYYY . ♥ Hope no shit happens , its the last one , i want to enjoy it , hopefully , but i guess not . Going to spam polaroids , and maybe going out after that . Oh well , that's pretty much it . Tuition at night , now , just gonna' chiong homeworks . Okies . ~ ♥ you guys , for being there for me ; Jeron BFF , Natasha girlf etcetc , Shina wifey , Zannie baby , & lastly , Zoey Dearest , thanks you guys , ♥ x123456789

Just another day .

Didn't update , was kinda busy . Thurs (140711) , nothing much , Fri (150711) , patched w/ Zoey , she's my old friend , filled w/ memories , of course will patch up . (: ♥ Sabrina was a total b i t c h . -'- Gossiped 'bout me to zann , zann to me ? Told me to ignore Zoey , and what freeload maximum . Tried to patch w/ Zoey just to get money ? -.- retarded bitch . Chinese class , decided to be a goodgirl . (: passed up all hw , all comprehension , complete . (: Went to jurong point to get something to add to Sabrina's present , but , changed mind . (: Got something for everyone , but her . Serves her right for too much two-facedness . Zann and i talked 'bout her , about how she freeloads , and gossips 'bout everyone . At first , was planning to lend her a cold shoulder on Monday , but , decided to be extra nice , and see how long she's planning on lying to everyone . She was practically b e g g i n g Zann to get her a nail polish set worth $16.90 , and Zann got it , and , Sabrina told me that it sucks ? Whathefuck , be more appreciative , tyvm . Talked w/ jeron , markus , for around 2 hours , then did work . Markus cute maximum , say what , if sabrina not christian , she'll go hell , so , monday teaching her ?hais , wo bu zhi dao ta . Helping markus with Sabrina ? Idk , try tell him not to like her . (: Jeron likes ___________ :b helping him too . ~ <: Lost my glasses , from shina , D: sibeh pekcek . fuckit . i want it backkk . gonna' call bus lost and found service later . now , 0845 , waiting for tution around 10 , then , homeworks , go down runrun , and call at night , yeah , i guess thats my day plan . Got : Zoey a badge ; Natasha her papers ; Shina a badge ; Sabrina a badge saying slut . (Y) ; and some card stuff for myself . Hope to find the glasses from shina , shina , im sorry , ♥ . Loves , Zoeyy baby , Natasha dearest , Shina wifey , Ronron bestie , Markus korkor , Zannie darling , ♥ .

130711' first post ♥

hello . (: ~ first update . (: i loves zoey lee ; natasha ; sabrina ; jeron ; zann ; shina ; ♥ i miss so many people , you all changed . today , woke up abit late , went to school , walked in the rain . ~ (Y) went there , normal stuff , then oolong raisins class . she almost boomzsxc ! (Y) recess , virus-ed with shina babes and natasha dearest . :> awesome shit . (: ernest solo-ed . ~ lessons , and rinngggg , bell . ~ found natasha , and virus gang , then played from 1300 till around 1320 . (: that woman and i talked , it was like wtf , why she talk to me , oh well . camwhored , and play play with ronron . (: *squeeze his balls* (Y) gave him a pen after he saw my pen collection , then go squeezeee . :b he ran thru the barriers , jumped over to fitness court , then crawled under to outside p1 classrooms . (Y) he treat me and nat fruit punch . thanks ronron . (: tumpang nat's car ~ went on facebook , zoey posted , talking bout me ? just tell me straight in the face la , wth . called ronron , after so long . ): talked awhile , talked bout some crap shit stuff , just like the usual . (: say what , he hates his life , got really concerned , asked , but , his tuition . ~ ): calling me again later around 2130 . (: will be waiting . ~ LOL . step my bro foot , then kissed it . ~ :x random shit . going down for virus w/ ethan and co , then shower , dinner , tution , call ronron , make some letters & cards for my precious babies , then , sleep . (: i love you all , thanks for being here when i need you to , ronron , best guy-friend , nana , best girl-friend . (: ♥