291011'

Meant to be posted on 291011'.

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Today has been great! Even better now that I remember tomorrow has church, not to forget, this iPad is practically mine for the office visits! Top girl! Haha lame but still. It's awesome. And then I think, a real boyfriend would be fun as well, but, no! I can depend well on myself alone. I don't need anyone. Except for god, family and friends! They're forever here for me! Family has been okay, except for those disgusting thoughts I think about every now and then... Relationship with Christ is as usual , AMAZING! Friendship problems, yeah, there's quite many. First, jiho. I'm okay with her, but seems like I'm the only one. But I don't mind that, I'm a strong girl, even I know that. The problem, why is it so tough for her?! I know it's tough for others, but her best friends totally ditched here! They're such bitches! Peishang is outrageously a liar, apple too. For Celine, she's nothing but a backstabber! Same for Ashley. Sabrina apparently is being zann's dog for idk what shit. She's randomly pmsing and pissing at me. Not just me though. But now she says it's a hard break between zann and myself. It just kills me inside when she is forever with zann but still comes t me and claims I'm better cause zann can't advise. I mean yeah maybe I do advise well but then at least she should be true to me instead f being a total bitch every now and then! But then again, reality check! She says zann can't advise like I do, but that IS a better point, isn't it? So shouldn't I be better? But nooooo~~ I'm apparently still 'tied' case she still counts that as little, I guess. But, she apparently still has the cheek to claim that she'd rather go to a same secondary school as me. I believed it for that moment, and I felt like flying, but noooppeeeee. She suddenly said: cause I'll get different marks as zann but mine and yours are alike so I'm going with you cause I don't wanna go alone. Isn't that as good as saying m her second choice while zann is, was, and forever will be her first choice?! I don't really care that much anymore. Whatever she does, it's all fake. She came over, we had such a great day, even dinner and a neo together, but the next day, she was back to the same as usual with zann. That's so sad for me. Fuck my life. Hais. She's just another bitch, that comes and goes, I'll just learn a lesson, and move on, and forget about her. Anyway Natasha and I drifted like hell. Cause she's spending too much time with Mitch. We wanna go out, I say, alright we two only right? Then she says with Mitch. For EVERYTHING. It hurts, we have no more alone time. So I decided to forget about everything cause they'll just let me down. But everyone, look. Why do you hate jiho so much. She never let me down like other bitches. And I'm gonna depend on her now. My rock.Besides god. Done with today, top girl here I comeeeee! Lame kids ftw yo! The last year to be lame, so enjoy! Talking about that, I'm gonna miss everything that happened when i grew up in btps. Well, all I need is for jiho and I to be together. Currently, that's all that matters. Plus, I'm actually quite happy Sabrina isn't allowed to follow me to Malaysia! We're gonna have the time of my life, she's gonna mean more than ever, and she'll just go back to her old zann dog thing again, and crush my hopes. So, I'll now just hope on god and jiho. Amen, ;).